is it childish to play the hard to get game?
esp when the other person possibly dosent even care?
sanctuary
|10:43 PM|
i am getting mixed signals.sighh.confused..
sanctuary
|4:10 PM|
everything was perfect till today,
now im left hanging,
unsure about what is goin on,
in some sense abandoned..
sigh
i miss you and i dont know what im supposed to do..
wait??
sighh
jealousy is an emotion i seriously hate man!!
I hope things go my way..
i hope im the one you choose..
sanctuary
|7:10 AM|
im sorry i got to pretend as if you never said what you said because i just dont know how to face you.. i hope im doing the right thing because i dont want to lead anyone on.. sorry
sanctuary
|12:31 AM|
I REALLY DONT WANNA GO BACK :(
sanctuary
|1:28 PM|
what do you do when you feel so alone and lost?
when the one you depended on has left you?
when it feels like theres i noone around?
its not so easy to pick your life up..
sanctuary
|11:11 AM|
i haven blogged in ages.. haha..
well alot of things have happened in the last yr that i haven blogged
one major thing that most ppl alr know about.
i must admit that was the hardest 3 months of my life, and i must really thanks my friends who were there to help me get thru it. you know who u guys are.. so thanks!! haha
found out alot of things about what you did to me and how you lied to me.. so maybe that helped..
well anyways here are a couple of pictures frm this hols
i dont think anyone reads this blog anymore at least so i shall ramble on.. haha
well i think its safe to say ive fallen for someone new.. always fall for the wrong ppl la.. i realise i think im addicted to the chase. but this time i decided stand back and jus let things take its course (: but now its not going too well cause im letting myself get beaten out of the race haha but its ok la.. i wont butt in.. if its fated then things will go my way (:
well its holidays now.. pretty bummed hols are nearly over..
been having a pretty good holiday, not that excited to go back, going bk on wed alr.(sadly) .ski trip coming up.. haha.. i dunno how thats gonna be man.. hope its gonna be fun (well at least you will be there) haha!
thats the only saving grace of the whole trip.
well i am excited to go back and get my new piercing!! hahaha think its gonna be my last one la..growing old alr haha
other than that i really dont wanna go back.. enjoying it right here where i am.
if you were mine now im pretty sure i wld love to go back.. haha.. start afresh but!! haha.. yeah so ill just see how (:
humans are such interesting creatures.. going after what they cant have haha.. human nature is realy quite odd..
so.. today has been quite a normal day of chilling arnd.. haha..
1)in the morning went with my dad to sign up for driving basic theory.
2)came home and crashed till around 3.
3)went to town to meet steph..
4)shopped around.. din really buy anything haha.. lousy quality shirts!! haha
5)steph and i went home to join my family for a barbaque
6) we cabbed to town to meet anthony.. we were supposed to watch wedding daze but there were no tix.. den we wanted to play arcade and pool but somehow ended up at anthonys place.. played with their hamsters haha.. so freaking small la.. quite cute tho
7) went home
haha yeah pretty normal day.. ohoh!! i jus remembered.. haha there was this song i wrote when i was all bummed and stuff.. haha here it is..
Everything rocks when you’re gone
(Revised version of everything sucks when you’re gone my mxpx)
!>All i ever needed was for you to love me too
Come on fucker
Was it so hard
For you to be faithful
A month ago you left me
And tomorrow i’ll leave too
You’re in my heart and on my mind
I’ll not bring you along
Everything rocks when you’re gone
Everything rocks when you’re gone
A dream of our reunion makes me curdle in my gut
How so very far away you are
My sun begins to shine
A month ago you left me
And tomorrow i’ll leave too
You’re in my heart and on my mind
I’ll not bring you along
Everything rocks when you’re gone
Everything rocks when you’re gone
Its not ok, its not ok
Cheated on me fool
Its not ok, its not ok
Ive got revenge set on you
Its not ok, its not ok
Ive got our memories all kicked out
Its not ok, its not ok
You should have been faithful
And stuck on with me
A month ago you left me
And tomorrow i’ll leave too
You’re in my heart and on my mind
I’ll not bring you along
Everything rocks when you’re gone
(i hate you, don’t need you)
Everything rocks when you’re gone
(i hate you, don’t need you) x2
looking back its quite funny la.. like how i write such stuff in states of depression.
all i can say is life is unfair and it dosent always go the way we want it to..
so when someone decides to leave you its not the end of your world
just pick yourself and look on the bright side cause there alot more to life than that someone.
esp if they cheat on you and decide to up and go just like that. chances are you din mean that much to them.
so... MOVE ON!!
haha just some advice to ppl in the same predicament..
ohoh i must say ah!! my results were pretty ok considering the circumstances i studied in.. haha must thanks God man (:
well thats it for today la.. shall update another day!! bye
sanctuary
|10:12 AM|
melbourne is boring!!!
shit lar alrdy starting to have assignments
haha feel quite lost actually
like cause they dun tell you when things are due
den like damn shit lar
haha ok so recently celebrated pong's and beng's bday
bengs bday was just ytd
quite messed up cause alot of us got like damn high on the brink of getting drunk
hmmm
was quite a terrible night for me
den this morning had diffiulty waking up for school
like i woke up at 8
den like kept going back to sleep till 9
luckily i could still catch up wit the class when i reached
i feel enriched by intro micro
hmmm
i seriously dun feel like i am in uni
like although alot of people are my age in uni
but like i still feel quite young
haha ok lar i shall go do my accounting and managing now :)
sanctuary
|2:59 AM|